Graduation

So, I'm not feeling very inspired to write about graduation, but I feel like I should commemorate being done and moving on from this chapter of my life at some point. Anyway, I'm graduating today. It's been 17 years since I started going to school, plus two years of joy school before kindergarten. So it's still not quite sinking in that I'm done. But I am... and tomorrow I'll have a diploma cover to prove it!

I'm Leaving on a Jet Plane...

Like Jewel, you know.

Anyway, early tomorrow morning I'm headed to Atlanta for a week of fun networking and competition. It'll be so good. I'm excited.

And then I'll come back for finals and graduation, and to pack up my life from the last 4 years.

And about 3 weeks from then, I'll be going on another jet plane, this time to Anchorage, where I will start grown-up life.

Too bad I hate Airports.

Dysfunctional

I am a mess.

My room is a mess.

My brain is a mess.

My schedule is a mess.

My classwork is a mess.

I am 100% disorganized, distracted, and dysfunctional.

Conundrum

FACT: I do not want a Master's degree

FACT: I do not want to start grown-up life

PROBLEM: If I do not go to grad school, and do not get a grown-up job, I will be a floundering, useless individual without a place in society or an excuse for my existence.

So I suppose I'll have to figure that out in the next little while here, huh?

Because I will graduate in April from one of the top Landscape programs in the nation, hopefully as a Certified Landscape Professional, and have to figure out then what's next. Talk about daunting.

Statistics

Definitely my least favorite class of the semester, STAT 221 is a three hour long block of monotone slide reading and corny jokes once every week. It's also ridiculously easy for me; math always has been, so these concepts are coming quickly to my mind, and it's a 200 level course, taken by a lot of freshmen. As a senior, I've already figured out how to do college, so I'm a bit ahead of that curve. No wonder I find it so difficult to convince myself that it is worth it to actually attend class...

You see, I can read the slides to myself much more quickly than my professor can read them to us all.

And patience while waiting for other people to catch up with the class has never been my strongest trait.

And Tuesdays are already horribly long- I'm at work or class from 8 am to 7 pm, and then have to go home to do more studying.

Plus, I learned what the mean and median are in 2nd grade. These are concepts that I've understood for about 2/3 of my lifetime.

So I struggle convincing myself that it's worth my time to go to class. There are open TA office hours and labs if I get into a sticky spot where I don't understand anything. And I know lots of smart people who have passed basic statistics classes who I could go to for help if I needed to.

That is all. Not a great attitude to have toward a class so early in the semester (by the way, can you believe that school has been back in session for almost a month? I can't.) But that's life. Sometimes I just have a pessimistic, impatient sort of attitude.

Back to School

Today I fly back to Utah- I'm so excited! I love school, and being busy. It's been a good week at home, though. I've gotten to spend some great time with my family. I love these crazies!